Psycho is what I am.

You know when you've got something in the back of your mind and you kind of keep digging at it to find it and then you realize what it is and maybe it's something you have to do or a memory or a song or something. Well, all today I've been doing that, except unlike any normal person the sentence that keeps repeating in my head is

"The closest cell site to the customer's location is:"

FUCK YOU VERIZON. STOP BRAINWASHING ME.

SIDE NOTE: OMG I LOVE MY LIFE. My World Lit professor emailed me saying that he made a mistake on the grading and that I got an A, which I just calculated into my GPA and I'm fucking keeping my scholarship!!! AHHHH I LOVE MYSELF.

SRSLY, I needed a 3.5 and my GPA is 3.51724138. Floating on a cloud.

That would be really funny if I calculated it wrong and I really lost it.

It's still not high enough to get into Arch Eng, but one stepping stone at a time.

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I want these:

I bought some sweet purple skinny jeans from F21 for just twenty bucks today. I also got a bronzish sort of jacket for 15 bucks. Then I got another high waisted black skirt for 12 bucks from Charlotte Russe. I was considering buying some denim high waisted shorts from F21, but it seems like that look is just going to die out inevitably. I wouldn't mind buying a pair that looked different or a pair of high waisted skirts, but the shorts that I was trying on looked too obviously this season.

I'm not sure what other clothes musthaves I'm looking for. Right now it's mostly about shoes for me, but I have a hard time shelling out money for shoes, but you really have to if you want good quality ones (i.e. above)

Envy.

I see people doing amazing things with their lives and I become so jealous of them.

What's holding me back from being one of those people? I can't say that any of these things are impossible for me. I'm too lazy, too scared, too complacent to stir things up in myself. It's terrible. I always frown on people who complain but don't do anything about it, and I'm one of them. I really need to wake up and get out of this rut that's lasted for 19 years.

Working hard for the $ and trying to look good while doing it

Since I've been having to dress up for work every day, I've been thinking lately about how to dress for work in a way that is both stylish and work-appropriate. The past couple of days have been conservative skirts, shirts, and my sweet Nine West heels. What other ways are there to still have some semblance of style without offending colleagues?

Today it's another shirt and skirt combination, except today to mix things up I'm wearing my high-waisted skirt. I had another one, but I cut it a couple of weeks ago so now it's definitely not an appropriate length for work (and some might say, for the general public)

I also found shoes to have an ambiguous criteria. My closed toed heels are a bit high, but they're not too trendy or flashy, I think. What other shoes are okay to step into the workplace?

Incapable of learning

I don't even know why I bother to pick up the phone.
Or why I'm so nice to him still.

(Lack of confidence, naivete, belief in the good in people?)

Detox.

Haha, I don't know. Hopefully Ready Clean worked its magic.

As the school year winds to a close, it was inevitable that I'd be thinking about the past year and what's changed, what's stayed the same, etc.

I feel like so much has happened, but it's hard to recap everything. Thinking back to the beginning of the year: Moving in to the dorms, going to parties with Yasmin, meeting Nathan, hanging out with Monica and Jordan. . . It's weird thinking that I have already finished my first year of college.

I didn't really finish my thoughts on this year, but I'm going to leave it on that note so I can sleep and get ready for my 9 am Bio final.