list·less [list-lis]

–adjective
having or showing little or no interest in anything; languid; spiritless; indifferent: a listless mood; a listless handshake.

I think I've become bored with life. I'm never really sitting around feeling bored, yet there's just this pull in me for something else.

I think the entire problem is the dichotomy of my personality.

There is the side of me that likes to be independent, that is lazy, that wants to take things day to day, that becomes complacent.

Then there is the side of me that wants to be proactive, that wants to think of the future, that wants to do things with my life, that wants to interact with the world, but is held back because the other part of me won't move because of the temporary strain of hard work.

It might be a disconnection between my mind (which yearns for something more) and my body (which is a lazy piece of lard)